JOHN, 39, OPERATIONS MANAGER IN THE HEALTHCARE INDUSTRY
I was introduced to the other woman by a male friend about six months ago during lunch. We work in the same industry. She was 29.
We started out meeting for casual lunches until about three months ago, when things turned serious.
We started going out for dinner dates and, before I realised it, I was falling for her.
I think we were both attracted to one another from the start but were too shy to admit it then. Besides, she knows I am married.
I cannot explain how things progressed so far but spending time with her made me forget the problems I’ve been having with my wife.
We’ve been married for five years and have no children.
Her job as an engineer keeps her very busy and, for most of our marriage, really stressed out.
She works late most of the time and when she gets home, she’s often in a bad mood.
But that changes when I present her with luxury goods she desires, such as shoes and bags from designer labels.
She will be so happy that she won’t pay attention to me at all.
There are times when I feel she loves her branded bags and shoes more than she does me.
Being with the other woman made me feel young and in love again. We would take short trips together.
She gave me the attention that I craved and she did not care for material goods.
I’m not trying to justify my actions. In fact, both the woman and I believe that cheating on someone is wrong.
However, I do not think anyone should be vilified for falling in love and wanting to be loved.
If my wife cheated on me, of course I would be angry. But I would ask myself if I had a part to play in her cheating. Maybe I have not done enough in the marriage.
What is ironic is that I have had friends who were cheating on their spouses and I had talked them out of the affair.
I feel terrible for cheating on my wife. I never stopped loving her but having the other woman in my life made being in this marriage bearable.
Many times, she wanted to break things off. But the more times she tried to do so, the harder it became to let go.
However, on Dec 31 last year, I decided to end the affair as I felt that it was the best thing to do for her.
She is still young and single and I don’t want to ruin her future.
If word gets out, it might jeopardise her career. That was something I did not want to happen to her.
It was very hard to say goodbye and even though my wife has no clue about the affair, I decided that it was the best thing to do for the other woman.
I actually don’t care much for my marriage.
But divorce is the last thing on my mind as I know for a fact that my parents would try to get us back together and prevent the divorce. Things will start to get messy.
Sometimes, I wish my wife will catch me red-handed and realise what she’s doing to me.
I’m still trying to fight the urge to call the other woman.
I really cannot promise that I will not stray in future. It’s not something I think about.
I just know that as of this moment, I am not cheating on my wife.
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This article was first published in Urban, The Straits Times.
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