From her blog on STOMP:
Some have felt that I've lost the sex appeal they thought I once had (oh?).
Some 3 years ago?
I am so happy to hear that actually.
I think experiences, circumstances and time change everyone and that includes myself. (See top right picture - I'm keeping myself all covered up now.)
I have hinted (or did I openly write about it) in previous posts that I did a lot of porn surfing in my younger days. Honestly, I still am the only female I know who openly discusses such topics with friends but strangest thing is that it no longer triggers any excitement and I no longer find various descriptions and scenes funny.
I never, never, ever thought that I would one day find anything sex-related (besides biology classes) repulsive. I had thought that I would watch it every day till I die - but now I find those who are constantly looking to feed their lust utterly sad.
I don't find that it has taken a toll on my personal life, because I can have a clearer picture of what everyone wants from me, and who are the sincere ones who are not fantasising about me.
And yes, I've deleted all the website links that I once compiled.
I have successfully quit smoking after having my second child, and the smell of cigarettes makes me nauseous (and that's the reason I quit) - so I guess I'm very lucky that my body rejected the puffs on its own. WOOHOO!
So what are the current vices that I have, that I can do without?
1) Chocolates. I eat them knowing that I would have diarrhoea and lose my voice and be down with some major cough for the next 3 weeks. But hey, milk chocolates are awesome and right now I am still on medication (since 22 Dec '09) because the cough wouldn't go away...
2) Can I say ‘being nice'? I'm caring by nature (believe it or not) and am always too willing to help a friend - so much so I get people who become overly-reliant on me and their problems become mine. Trust is a double-edged sword and in my case, it looks like some vice to me.
3) Twiddling. I twiddle a lot. Unconsciously and it is... ugly.
4) Buying fabrics faster than I can use them. I have over $400 worth of fabric sitting in my room because I buy them and think that I would have time to make something out of it.
This is one thing that is bothering me of late. I've so many ideas on my mind but I don't have the time to execute them.
Yet, I still can't seem to stop shopping for fabrics and the moment I go into the fabric merchants I wouldn't be out until at least 3 hours later. My room is like a walk-in wardrobe now.
Lastly...
5) I lose my cool and flip my middle finger easily and just this afternoon I flipped at a truck driver (GQ 9280 B) who failed to stop at the turn when the light was red because he was looking only to his right at the pedestrian crossing.
I was already cycling across (with my baby) halfway and so I cycled after him just to continue flipping at him.
Also, I tend to scold people who walk like they're going on a slow funeral march and taking up the entire pavement:
I was behind them for the longest time because they moved left, right, centre, right, left, diagonal, parellel...
And I think I can do without flipping my middle finger at my neighbour's CCTV installed along the corridor. What is the HDB ruling with those? I hate being watched even when I want to pick my nose while waiting for the lift.
